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Isaiah 26:3-4
You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.  Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock.

Our life is busier than ever before.  I fight for time to rest.  The chaos that fills my calendar days is nothing compared to the chaos inside my mind.  When this happens I quickly find myself broken before the Lord, begging him for help.  Life never stops.  I am surrounded by takers and very few givers which makes it imperative that I retreat and be filled up after being poured out.  That is exactly what Jesus did.  He was literally surrounded by thousands of takers.  Over and over we see him retreat to a quiet place to pray and be with His Father.  My ministry as wife, mom, friend, gospeler, pre-k leader, community group leader, discipleship leader is nothing to what he endured during his ministry and yet over and over I find myself whining to him about being tired.  His answer, "rest" (I love His heart and how simple he keeps it for this simple heart).  If Jesus needed it then I certainly do!  The truth is, when I neglect this I am not only hurting myself and being unfruitful but I am being disobedient.  His law is perfect and I delight in it, not because I love laws but because it is from our loving Father who knows how life works best and what we need.  Just when I feel like I am about to suffocate and I cant go on, He is faithful to remind this wandering heart of this truth.  Rest.  I will never be the woman he has called me to be until I get this.  I repent from my disobedience and am committed to seeking after his heart and shutting down my mind and busyness so that I can stay in complete peace and in communion with my love.  Without that, all this 'stuff' is meaningless.  It's all for Him and about Him. 

Sweet Lord,
May you reign on the throne of my mind today and every day.  May this worker never work out of routine, but out of the fruitfulness of your spirit living inside me.  May it never be out of my strength but only that power that comes from walking in you.  Keep me in perfect peace, for my trust, my hope and my love is all in you.  Thank you again for your mercy and faithfulness.  For never giving up on me but constantly pruning, refining and molding this heart to look more like you.  That is my heart's desire.  No matter what fire that may bring.  Refine me because I know there is no other place I will be content in.  Thank you.