Dear Ezra,

Ezra,
Yesterday afternoon Mommy went to the doctor and had an ultrasound to check your development.  It has been 19 weeks since God placed you in my womb.  So far your time in my tummy has been much easier than your big brother and sister.  I am praying that you are my 'peaceful' child ha!  From the moment I saw the positive sign on my pregnancy test, God has given me such a great peace about you.  I have not been anxious about your health or well-being and as I drove to my appointment yesterday, there was no difference.  My heart was filled with excitement to get to see you and how much you have grown.  After the ultrasound, I sat in the patient room waiting to see my doctor.  After she looked at your pictures, she came in and told me that you looked perfect except that you have what is called, Choroid plexus cysts on your brain.  She explained that this is weakly related to down syndrome however, they want to explore more just to be sure so she referred me to a specialist to get a level 2 ultrasound done.  Little one, all these things are just details and the only reason I am even sharing them is because Mommy wants you to know that even as I sat there and heard that there is a possibility that you could have a disability, our faithful Father graced your momma with so much peace that it even astounded me.  You see, earlier that morning, as I sat before the Lord, I asked Him to give me more faith and I knew as I prayed those words that it would come through something to do with your time in my womb.  The truth of it is, even if He allowed us to walk that road, He is faithful and He is good.  I believe with all of my heart that you are perfectly healthy, but even if you weren't, that would not change my love for you for a single second.  It would not make me disappointed or fearful because you, my darling, are fearfully and wonderfully made by our Father.  I loved you before He formed you.  Mommy prayed and asked our sweet Father to bless us with another little blessing and He said yes by giving us you.  I know that you are going to be a very special little boy.  I have a deep conviction that He is going to use you and your siblings in mighty ways.  I pray for you every day.  For your health, your journey into this world and most of all for God to place a strong desire and burning passion for Him in your heart.  You are so blessed by two very special siblings who are very excited to meet you.  Your big brother Elijah kisses my tummy and talks to you all the time.  Your big sister Halle thinks that I have named my belly button Ezra, ha, but I have no doubt when she understands she will be thrilled!  God has also blessed you with an amazing daddy who is already in love with you.  He works hard, laughs hard, prays hard and loves hard.  He has a deep love and a burning passion for Jesus and is bursting with excitement at any opportunity to teach you about Him.  We are so excited to meet you and watch you grow to be a man who reveres the King.  I have no doubt that you are perfect.  Not by any standards of this world, but by the standards of your Creator.  I am praying that when we go see this specialist Monday, that these cysts are gone and that it will be all for the glory of the Lord.  Already, your life is bringing Him praise and you haven't even taken your first breath.  I just want you to know that our Father is good and our Father is faithful.  It is Mommy and Daddy's greatest mission to live our lives in front of you children so to see the face of Jesus.  Although, we mess up time and time again, His mercy remains.  In these times of uncertainty, we have a hope that still holds firm and that is our hope in Jesus.  We have joy through tears and His word chases away all fear.  My sweet boy, He is more than my words could ever express so I am looking forward to the opportunity to show you day after day, trial after trial, who He is and what we have in Him.  I cant wait to see your sweet, precious face.  I cant wait to finally hold you in my arms.  I love you little boy and I am so honored to be your mommy. 
March 14, 2012